Truthfully, I don't even know anymore. I started because I was extremely competitive. I wanted to win competitions and get leads. While that may still be a part of it, it's not the entire basis of my acting anymore. I know I'm not the best; hell, I might not even be good. I know that I'll never become a professional. So why do it?
It sure as hell isn't for financial gain. It won't help me for college. It won't help me with dating.
So why do it?
I don't know why. It's like asking me why I jog in the morning, or why I journal every night before sleeping. It's just become something that I need to do to feel healthy and normal.
...but it's more than that. It's not just some basic need. It's a passion; a desire. It's what I want to do. I want to be on stage with a thousand eyes peering into the very essence of my soul. I want recognition. I want exposure.
But more than that, I want to be transformed. I want to see if I can successfully become another person. To truly, absolutely, positively be my character. Body, heart, and soul.
So why am I doing this? I don't know. This entire blog has equated to one large rambling session. All I know is that I love doing this, and no matter what, I know that this will always be what I want to do. And in the end, I guess that's all that matters. It doesn't matter why, where, or how-- all that matters is that we keep acting.
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